after seeing pdoc (medication guru) tonight there are these feelings I have but can't find the words to describe. i've been trying with paper and pen but too shaky to write. the words don't come. the feelins grow. the words don't come.

why a benign appointment is such a source of distress.......

fed dog. nighttime pills would be good idea if i can rememer that far ahead.

like lead curtain...haevy and cold

this is why i don't like to ber arond ppl. this. me.