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Originally Posted by Jersey 4
I was up stupid early this morning so I went back and read the first two couch threads ever made. The difference between then and now when I was totally wrapped up in therapy and the therapist was crazy to read. I can’t understand the place I was in back then. (Those couch threads go back to 2011/2012). You won’t find them under my name as it’s been changed multiple times.) Anyway-the attachment to the therapist and those sessions and how she was practically the end all and be all to my existence back then is baffling to me. I don’t know how I was in so deep but I’m glad it’s not a part of my life anymore.
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I'm glad reading that helped you feel better about how you're doing now. It can definitely be jarring to read things like that.
I've felt similarly recently reading old posts regarding ex-MC and especially emails to him and ex-T (I kept them). I felt embarrassed for my old self for some of the emails especially. They were just so long and included soooo many random details. It helps me to see how, even though I (obviously!) have attachment to and some transference for Dr. T, I'm also in a different place now.
Incidentally, my big rupture with ex-MC (involving the "I love you so much" email after the concert and the awful phone call that resulted from it) was almost 7 years ago (was in early December).