Yeah I'm sure I just have autism-ADHD/Mild OCD induced psychosis.

And an avoidant personality.

Then my bad psychedelic trip gave me depersonalization/derealization.

I understand it so far. In fact, I understand life enough to be calm... In the midst of the chaos - Or any torture that will happen within this finite life. Ketamine helped me with that - To see that we are infinite fractals.

Life is life. I have to unlearn more and then relearn more.

And to just live... To try.. I'm in a mental hospital right now.. The therapist here that knew me for 10 years - He said that I'm the worst he's ever seen me - Cuz I want to intellectualize everything... In a grandiose way.