I feel like things are starting to slip. Took an hour long power walk in the dark this morning. My pdoc visit went mostly okay I guess though when I told him I don't feel like taking my medication half the time, he's like "Well, don't do that!" Then, I mentioned the anxiety is causing me nausea and reading is getting harder for me and I'm overspending. Pdoc is like, well, we can increase your Seroquel. And I'm like, increase to how much? He's like 400 mg; I already take 300 mg/night. Then, I asked did he want to turn me into a zombie or something and he said I sounded defensive how about increasing to 350 mg? And I said, ok, fine, but can I have the extra 50 mg in 25 mg tablets so I can take 1 or 2 a day for anxiety & panic attacks? Thankfully, he went along with that! Then he told me I should come back next week, but I said how about 2 weeks, I'm practically living at your office. He agreed and then told me to strongly reconsider therapy.

Well, whatever. At least I get the 25 mg quetiapine which works on my anxiety almost as well as Xanax.

I may have had some anger issues today.