I had a horrible day yesterday afternoon. Around noon, I got so depressed and couldn't stop crying. I was so sad and having SI thoughts. I just cried and cried. H and my daughter didn't know what to do with me. Finally around 4 PM, I feel asleep. H woke me up and asked if I wanted dinner and I said no, so he took care of it for him & my daughter. I did take my nightly meds when H woke me. Then, I slept until nearly 4:30 AM. So about 12 hr. And for once, H didn't wake me with his snoring in the middle of the night.

Maybe I'm doing better today. I hope so. I feel drained, like I ran a marathon. Nevertheless, I did take a power walk this morning, and I am brewing a cup of coffee. I wish I could just take it easy today, but H is going into work and a guy is coming this morning to give a quote on a broken sewer pipe we have, so I have to deal with that. Then, my daughter has a dentist appt. this afternoon. Now, writing this, I feel like crying again. Yesterday, I tried to call my sister to talk, but she didn't answer. I left a voicemail, and she never called back then later texted that she had a bridal fitting, Christmas decorating, tae kwon do. What the heck, she can't skip tae kwon do for a week?!

OK, I am tearing up. God, I HATE this!