I’m not talking about you.

I’m suggesting maybe you look at some of the things she’s done.

If you’re the one drained, feeling this low, who gave up everything that mattered to you, and if you’re “fawning”, begging for some closeness maybe she’s contributing some toxicity.

If she’s been gone, then back, hot, then cold, talks about sex and taunts you but doesn’t act until you find the magic combination of getting everything right…. That all sounds like manipulation.

It also creates a feeling of you being addicted to her.

I was.

A junkie keeps looking for the old high, but the highs get further apart and they aren’t as good, but a junkie will keep searching for them.