Still feeling down and depressed. I took all my night meds as prescribed incIuding the gabapentin slept 10 hr last night. Took a long walk this morning took my morning meds even though I feel like not taking them, what good are they doing, did some weight machines at the the park. Thinking maybe if I tired myself out, I wouldn't be so depressed. But I don't know. I still feel like crying. I took a shower, had coffee, started laundry, decided to wash the sheets too, and now I'm wishing I hadn't done the sheets, but they're in the machine so it's too late.

I used the SAD lamp again this morning, 2nd day in a row. Pdoc said to use it for 30 min in the morning. I read while using it, but is it okay to use a tablet with the lamp? Not really sure if it does anything. Anyone here have success with a SAD light?

I don't even know why I feel like crying. Nothing is really that wrong other than the stress of the holidays, my daughter's birthday, a party for her, anniversary of a sexual assault, having some flashbacks I guess, a bit of dissociation but I dissociate a lot, so it's nothing new.



HUGS to everyone here. Thanks so much for the support. I am so grateful for this forum as these things are not easy to talk about, even with H. And it's hard for H to understand just how crushing the depression is