Just one other quick note from my own experience.

I saw the same counselor from 2018 until present. Me and my wife split in January 2023.

In March 2023 my daughter and wife were attending counselling together. The therapist blocked my wife from attending further sessions, and blocked her from accessing further individual services at that clinic due to the manipulation she witnessed in the sessions with our daughter.

FINALLY, after 5 years, my therapist said, "If you need me to say it, it's not you. You have examined you enough. It's not you. I can't treat her, or talk about her, or diagnose her because of ethics and because she isn't my client or in the room with me. But if you need someone to directly tell you it's not you, it's not you."

If you are ASKING therapists to diagnose you and looking for the problem in YOU and they aren't helping you find answers..... Dude..... Maybe it's not you.

Seek therapy, self-examine, get meds, but if the professionals aren't giving you a diagnosis, maybe it's not you.