Thread: I Feel Suicidal
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Old Nov 28, 2024, 09:34 AM
cutman2000 cutman2000 is offline
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Originally Posted by RDMercer View Post
Yeah

That’s what most likely happened. You were most likely used.

It happened to me too, and others on this forum.

You were there to fill a role.

Love starts with you. Love yourself and find things to care for yourself and give you some sense of fulfillment

If you weren’t a good person who believed in love, if you weren’t solid and reliable, this wouldn’t have happened to you.

Me and you aren’t that far off in age. @eskielover has been an inspiration to me in starting over. @Have Hope has been starting over at 50+ too.

What one person can do another can do.

She’s been bleeding you. Stop the bleeding. When you want to reach out to her, redirect that energy back to yourself to do or have something you want.
So, me thinking I was used to get the kids to college is not too farfetched? I really do believe this in my heart now, not saying she doesn't love me, but who knows.
I think some women don't believe in marriage but want a track record to show they were at least wanted by showing that they were married. I think some women actually find it an honor to say they're divorced. For most men, I think we see it as a failure.

So where are you in your journey? How's dating for you?

I haven't dated anyone else since I was 19. It's like coming out of a time machine. I saw my wife age from 11, I was dating her then neighbor. She became my girlfriend when she was 16. So, I always saw/see her as 16ish(even today). But I can imagine another looking at my wife and see her exactly for her age. So, looking at women my age(for dating) today sort of freaked me out.

"What one person can do another can do." "And today, I'm going to kill the mother F***er."
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