I think you’ll work through this ok.

I recall a manager who micromanaged me to the nth degree. Everything I did I got questioned at great length. It used to drive me insane, as it made feel like my manager had no faith in me. However, over time I realised I just had to accept it (like you, I didn’t want to move on to another job at that stage, as I was worried my poor mental health would let me down). So I just relaxed and let it wash over me and answered the questions every time. I used to vent to a fellow colleague occasionally, which helped.

The funny thing was, the manager in question left for another job after about two years, and when they left they went to great lengths to tell me how much they were going to miss working with me, and what a pleasure it had been, and told me how much I’d made their working life so much better. I was utterly shocked. I’d assumed, wrongly, that the micromanagement was a lack of trust in me, but it wasn’t. I think it’s just the way some people are built - they need to know everything. I’m not saying that’s the case with your situation, but you just never truly know what’s going on in someone else’s head.

As an aside, some of the best working relationships I’ve had have stemmed from some really bad starts to that relationship. Sometimes it takes a while to gel with people. Often, when I’ve spent time trying to work out what’s going on in their world, or what they’re trying to achieve, I’ve been able to smooth out the bumps in the road.

Wishing you a happy and peaceful weekend. I hope you can find time to take your mind away from your work issue.