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Originally Posted by Blue_Bird
I keep thinking how I’d be better off dead. No family called or messaged today for the holiday. No one invited me over. The only family I really have left is my sister and she lives 15 minutes away. Heard nothing from her all day, I texted her happy Thanksgiving around 4pm and she texted “Happy Thanksgiving” back and that was it. I feel like no one gives a **** about me. Even my ex boyfriend who I’m good friends with now called me but my own family can’t bother to call. And no I didn’t call them because it’s always me who has to initiate any conversation or anything, otherwise I wouldn’t hear from them for months on end
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I'm so sorry. I can commiserate right now. I am having a lot of SI thoughts. I am feeling exactly the same about my sister. I called her crying, left a message I was depressed, PLEASE call me and all she did was texted back all the stuff she was so busy with she couldn't call me. I mean, really, she couldn't skip tae kwon do ONE week to talk to me? Yesterday, all I got were Happy Thanksgiving texts from my sisters, my mom, my aunts. Only my 91 year old grandmother called to wish me a happy Thanksgiving, and she was the one person I didn't expect to hear from what with her age and health problems. It did hearten me a little at least though I don't unload stuff about my depression to my grandmother, she's been through too much in her life to have to contend with that.
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