Hugs @Blueberrybook and @Blue_Bird we have each other though! Hope you're both managing right now.
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Honestly, kinda wanna die right now. I was feeling less like utter trash this week, and then yesterday and this morning I just went fking wild, and now I just want to sleep and sleep and sleep and not have to deal with anything and not dream or anything. I don't even know what I'm hearing right now. The TV is off, my mom's asleep, and there's just a person talking but it's muffled and it's really freaking loud. Feel like I'm gonna puke too.

I know who's on the crisis line right now, might call her...