You need to get away from that woman. She's a therapist. She shouldn't be crossing boundaries like that, blatantly making you uncomfortable. Maybe she's bottom-tier therapy, maybe she's intentionally going after you, either way it's doing more harm to you than her.

Please report this woman. Keep in mind she has other clients too who may experience something similar, and the more people speak out the better.

You writing all this shows you know it's messed up. I know you said you're dependent on her, but you don't have to be. She's just a therapist, you're her client, do not let her get paid for stressing you out in a traumatic way. There are other therapists, ones who care and don't force contact.

I have trouble with being touched too. You know how I work on that in therapy? Talking about when other people touch me, and what to do when I feel different things from different people. Not by having that one person make me feel unsafe touch me (which I guarantee will only make the aversion worse, but probably make you feel bad for enforcing boundaries and let other people walk on you more further down the line).

Trust me, quicker she's gone, the quicker you'll recover.