It seems unreal because you're used to passively accepting that you can't change your life. But look what you just did. You massively changed your life. You did that! See - you have power. This is new for you. But it's real. You're not dreaming. You can make a consequential decision and follow it through. Let this become a habit - you taking hold of the reins and going in the direction YOU choose, not waiting to see where someone else will take you (and not liking where that ends up being.) Even if a decision turns out bad, it's better to make your own decisions. Decisions can usually be revised. Making decisions is like anything else we do: the more you do it, the better you get at it. You'll learn so much, seeing how this plays out.

You face some tough challenges, due to having no family back up. Cultivate relationships with people you can respect. Older folk are often surprisingly eager to help out a young woman who is sincere, honest and doing the best she can. If you look over the threads in this forum, you'll see that having family can be a double-edged sword. Family can often be the source of a lot of grief. Over time you can build your own network of support. Develop a reputation for being honest and dependable. Show good will toward those around you, but maintain appropriate boundaries. A young woman on her own can attract the attention of others with wrong intentions. Don't place a lot of trust in anyone, until you know them. Knowing another person takes time and more time. It can't be rushed. Keep your options open. Don't make commitments prematurely.

You've gotten yourself out of a situation that was destroying your soul bit by bit. I think you made a good move. Watch that negative self-talk. Tell yourself positive things, as you face challenges ahead. Screwing up now and then is part of life. When a decision doesn't work out, you make a new decision - like you just did, getting yourself out of a relationship that was taking you down. Nobody rescued you. You rescued yourself.