I ordered a book Borderline Personality Disorder: Demystified by Robert O. Friedel, MD) and it was delivered this weekend. I read a few pages so far, going to read a few more pages today. I've never been alone, and I keep worrying what if something happens to me. What if I get sick and can't work, can't pay my bills? What if I need help with everyday things, some type of assistance, etc. I'm not really close to my family and I have no one here. My siblings are an hour away in another state. Me and my brother have drifted apart.