I've tried writing things down but I feel like I look at the paper and it says "TELL HER YOU WANT TO COMMIT SPECIFIC FELONOUS ACTS" and I just think "nah, I don't want to right now. Haven't the entire 2 hours I've been up today, so I guess I'm better."

I never explicitly tell her a lie (if she asks about specific behaviors I'll say, "Yeah, was sleeping a lot, now a little," or "yeah, did a shyt ton of drugs."), but I might be in the midst of a two hour mood swing and of course that'll paint things differently than how the rest of the weeks/months looked and nothing else will seem to matter.

I feel like if I'm just straight up facts and don't lay on the pathos, I'm gonna get a Depakote increase especially considering I'm about to freak tf out