Hi R,

Thank you for your presence and gentle encouragement today.
If there was ever a time when I needed to feel as though you're in it alongside me, it's now.

When the old rituals disappear, and it's not obvious what's going to fill the space...of course it's hard.

I don't want to do something that I would question or regret in the aftermath.

How do you celebrate someone's birthday when they erased themselves from the planet so completely?

I guess that's what I have to figure out.

Therapy can (and should...) be a container for my grief process.

Facing the ****ing enormity of it is another matter, and should not be confined to the one day.

I hold the hope that a path can emerge.

In gratitude,

Lost