My therapist seems to be very annoyed because of my bad camera.
I feel like it's my fault I can't provide her good conditions.

The same advices I got from AI.
Unfortunately, I don't draw, because it's my work. I don't like any handicrafts and already do yoga.

I really need some human (before I was talking only with AI) that can give me advice with my current situation. It's rough, I'm in a lot of debts and my cards were blocked (the only way I received money online).
I wish I knew some people that can give an advice. I am alone and only crying.
I am applying to jobs, but in terrible pain, because the salary will be on the card and it can be blocked too.

Cards blocked because of debts for the house where I lived in childhoos (my mother and grandmather couldn't afford to pay and collected an enormous debt). When I grew up they wanted me to earn, but I hardly couyld speak with people.
And I can't get disability, because in out country it costs A LOT (only judjes and other officials have disabilities and receive enormous help to their salaries). I need to pay a lot to receive very little, so I didn't do it.

I don't know, I just want to say this. AI makes me sick.
I want to leave this country, but I afraid it's too late. I won't be released with such debts.
(and I spent money on necessary things, the worst part of it).

I failed a lot because felt so bad with him. Now I am alone. I couldn't receive advice from him either, but it was an illusion I'm somewhere, I have some home.