I spent 48 hours without using social media or the internet. I basically just played with my cat, read my books, listened to music, meditated, journaled, practiced ukulele , cleaned and did a lot of laundry. It was very peaceful and nice. I’m trying to be more mindful of my scrolling on social media like Facebook cause I’ll spend countless hours a day if I’m not careful. I just want a more balanced relationship with it. Also my screen time was concerning. Like my phone would say I’d be on it 12 plus hours a day every day. Sometimes a ton more like 16 hours. Which concerned me cause this has been going on for years and years and I think of all that time I could have been doing anything else other than staring at a screen and letting my life pass me by. So I took a 48 hour break from the internet and my phone and social media. I didn’t even watch tv during this time or text people. Just kind of stayed introspective. It helped my focus a ton and I had less anxiety. I also learned that boredom isn’t the end of the world and that I don’t have to distract myself with stimulating stuff 24/7 or freak the second I feel boredom and numb myself by watching shows or whatever scrolling etc for hours for cheap dopamine.
Anyway, it was a good experience. I’m still gonna use social media but it made me realize I need to be more present in my life too and create more balance between them. And every now and then I might do a 48 hour tech break even someday work my way up to a week occasionally without it. I think that’s healthy.
I also realized a lot of my overeating is done when I’m scrolling or binge watching shows. It’s like one bad habit is a trigger for another. Binge watch, eat junk. Scroll, eat junk. When I was doing this it didn’t binge eat or boredom eat, it just wasn’t as appealing as it is when I have entertainment with it lol. It’s just food outside of that when it’s not paired with an exciting activity like a good movie or show.
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“All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
Diagnosis:
Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type
PTSD
Social Anxiety Disorder
Anorexia Binge/Purge type
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