Hi Rose,
You can get through this. I'm happy for you that your living space is clean. That makes a huge difference mood wise for me, too. Try little things each day so you do t fall into the abyss. I myself cant wait until January even though there is little stress on me this year. Honestly my favorite thing to do is to watch a Christmas themed movie when my husband has gone to bed (not that he is bad company in any way). I just like that time to myself. One of my favorite movies is The Bishop's Wife with Cary Grant. You have pulled yourself up before and although it may seem to be tough going I am confident you can do it again.

I will look for your posts so keep posting. A little support can go a long way!