I belive I have always had a panic disorder to some degree, but here in the past five years it has gotten worse. First my mother died from ovarion cancer. She was only 42 and I was 22. Then my step-dad tried to steal the family home that my great grandparents built in WW2. Then for some reason in the past year, my symptoms have gotten 100% worse and I don't leave the house anymore. I have'nt talked to anyone in my family for about a year and a half. And I stay in a constant state of fear. And my nerves are shot. My insurance was cancelled because of my husbands Crohn's. So I have'nt been to see a doctor or had my meds in a year. Which I know has something to do with the worsening of my symptoms. But despite it all I try to stay on the sunny side and push the bad thoughts away.