I am going to break my long-term period of celibacy. There's a guy I used to sleep with, over a year ago. We recently reconnected and have plans to see each other in the next couple of weeks. Last night, I thought I had feelings for him, so I had to reign myself in. I know I don't - I think I am just lonely and wanting affection and sex. It's been far too long... even though I did kiss someone else just recently and that was nice, but I want the real, whole thing: sex. I still don't want to date, but I want physical intimacy. This guy is fun but I don't think datable, so it's perfect.