I saw the pdoc today. No med changes but he said to increase the use of the SAD lamp to 45min to an hour. I guess I'll try that. I told him my moods are up and down right now, like a rollercoaster. And sometimes both at once, like feeling hypo but hypo with SI thoughts, does that even happen? Haven't taken the extra 50 mg Seroquel yet today, that might slow me down some, enough I can read because I can't read right now. Thought I put on a pretty good face for pdoc, but he said to come back in 1 week b/c he's taking vacation most of the rest of December/early January and he doesn't feel comfortable going 4 weeks between visits. Whatever.

Need to slow down some right now though. I feel pretty up. And that feels good but I am not able to read my book like this, and I was really enjoying it yesterday. Probably need to take the extra 50 mg Seroquel now (sigh).