I took a shower. It felt good. I also got on the treadmill for 30 minutes. That makes an hour of walking today cause I did a 30 min walk outside today too. I hit my 10,000 daily step goal. It’s so hard for me to motivate myself to exercise but I always feel so much better afterwards. I’m hoping to stay consistent with this. It’s great for so many things. Low energy, ironically exercising helps that. Bad mood, exercise can get anger and irritability out and sometimes channel some of my excess energy when I’m manic in a non destructive way. Feeling depressed? Endorphins can help a bit. Better physical fitness just helps me feel better overall and more stable. Plus sleep. Which I haven’t been getting. I tossed and turned for 2 hours last night. Got up at midnight and have been up since. Again. In three days I’ve gotten 7 hours of sleep total. It’s going on 3pm now. I’m sick of insomnia. I literally am not capable of sleeping when not on Thorazine. Idk why. Idk if it’s withdrawal effects and it’ll go away over time or if I have to choose between staying on Thorazine which I don’t want to or staying off it and never sleeping.

The meds I’m on are:
Abilify 30mg
Trileptal 1500mg
Zoloft 150mg
Thorazine 200mg.

I don’t want to have to replace Thorazine with something else either. I just don’t want to be on it at all period. I don’t feel comfortable being on two antipsychotics at the same time. My doctor is fine with it but idk. The goal was to get me off Thorazine eventually but every time we stop it I immediately go into severe insomnia and don’t sleep for days. I also don’t want to go into a psychotic episode and that is more likely to happen the longer I go without sleep. So idk. Maybe the benefits of taking it outweigh the risks of stopping it. Is it normal to be on two antipsychotics?