My sleep isn’t horrendous, unless I skip my PRN for sleep (then I straight up don’t sleep). But I just feel EVERYTHING!!!! It’s not even 10am and I’ve already been at 200% horny, paranoid, Rageful, actively suicidal, hopeless, grandiose, and dissociated.

(I did wake up to some stuff my man sent me this morning (videos n stuff on Facebook) but it was vaguely reminiscent of stuff my last partner would send without any “good morning” or actual conversation stuff other than him questioning if I am capable of using a microwave so…

Also yesterday the substance abuse was wild. But I’ve been wild ish for a couple weeks now. Today I just want to die because my workbook wanted me to refute the belief “I am incapable of a healthy happy relationship .” And I couldn’t.