I'm not doing good at all. Had a breakdown last night. L is talking about IOP and I'm not turning it down like I usually do.

I did good just now. I made an appointment with a new pdoc. It isn't until Feb 3rd, but she gets good reviews, so I'm will to wait hoping the reviews are correct. I'm just a test subject for current pdoc. I've been through so many meds this year... I was mostly stable on my meds from last pdocs for 10 years? But this pdoc changed everything trying to stop the SI completely. I'm just done. She also is very pushy with me.