Caleb is still criticizing everything about me! It's like I can't exist around him because I'll get criticized! It's like my finding out that it is the purple/blue dye causing the reactions instead of the meds is a fault of mine personally. It made sense it was the meds because it always happened about half an hour after I took the meds! So now Caleb feels free to say everything he wants to about "Let's tell Jennie everything we don't like about her!" And that makes me want to never talk with him again! Email after email! You have always supported me. Caleb says I'm helpless. Well anaphylaxis is a helpless feeling! Especially when you don't know the cause! In fact you need outside help for anaphylaxis! I was only getting professional input and those professionals said call 911. I was the one who figured out that it was the Gatorade! My doctor added that it's the blue/purple part that I'm allergic to. Even my primary says to still hold off on the gabapentin but restart Vraylar. And I can and have done that. I really don't feel love from Caleb. Just criticism. I am not perfect. It took a flash of intuition to figure out it's the Gatorade! And I don't know how long he will continue to criticize me. Who died and made him my boss?

I don't feel love from him at all. In fact he actually doesn't like me very much and I'm getting email after email to this effect!

am I helpless as he says? Yes! When I am having an allergic reaction. And Caleb doesn't understand that feeling. Stay here and die potentially or get help. It's just that it went on for so long! Nobody knew it was the food coloring.

I think my friendship with Caleb has come to an end.