I'm sorry you find the holiday season hard. Do you know why that is? In my case, it is being alone that I find tough. I'm trying to do something about that, but venturing out of my shell makes me anxious. There are some opportunities available where I can do some things with others. I must put them on my calendar and commit to showing up. Even though I know getting involved with others helps me, I still have this tendency to shrink into my own little world. It's a battle to make myself not do that.