I took a shower because I was feeling irritable. It helped some. I practiced violin today. Had a decent day. I want to get into the habit of showering every day. I’m starting to feel like it’s becoming an essential part of my days. Like back whenever I’d be inpatient you’d have to shower everyday. Either in the mornings or before bed. And I never realized why till later how important routine is. But not only that. It can literally make me feel so much better and can turn feeling crappy around. I tend to feel worse/more anxious towards the ends of the days. Consistently. Everyday. So I try to take my showers in the late afternoon to early evenings. And it makes such a difference. It can help my anxiety, help my irritability and anger. It can put me in a much better mood. The temperature change, feeling clean and fresh and cozy. It’s just so nice. I struggled for so long with showering regularly. Now I feel bad and off when I go a day without one. I recall several times in the past week where I realized I wasn’t feeling well and I was like well you know I what I haven’t done yet today, shower. So I shower. It doesn’t solve everything. But it’s a little thing that can make a big difference. Of course it was triggering for awhile because I hated looking at my body. Now I don’t care. I just want stress relief. I want tempurature change cause it helps with anxiety, dissociation, panic etc it’s like a DBT skill called TIPP. I go in feeling like crap I come out feeling better at least a bit better, sometimes more sometimes less but it’s always an improvement of some sort. It is also helpful because I can think more clearly in the shower. Idk why. It’s almost meditative kind of.

Kind of vegged out on the couch after my two appointments. Other than practicing violin I didn’t do much else. I read my book for awhile. Mostly just drank some decaf coffee and watched anime.