Posting this a little late, Mhwh. I had terrible trouble with maths in school. I've never self-diagnosed anything but the symptoms of dyscalculia, after reading up a little, seem awfully familiar. Hope you get through school Mhwh. You'll have options open to you that aren't so math focused. Some options won't even involve maths at all. Get through high school math and things should relax for you a little...you'll have choices.