I’m doing well. Decided to increase my violin lessons. So instead of 1 or 2 times a month I’ve been doing I’m gonna do 4 lessons a month going forward. Should be helpful.

Gotta take that paperwork down to social security on Tuesday. I’m hoping they’re not super busy, I’m gonna go/get there as soon as they open.

I have to go get bloodwork done on the 30th for my Dr. appointment on the 15th of January. Retesting vitamin D levels to see where they’re at now with the daily supplement they prescribed.

My dissociation is a lot less frequent. I haven’t dissociated in a month. A whole month. Which is unheard of for me. It generally happened 1-2 times a week at least and at my worst it was happening almost everyday. Idk if it’s due to the EMDR I started with my therapist, that could be it cause we’ve been working on that. Not smoking weed definitely helps too.

We’ve also been working on the impulsivity due to the bipolar part of my diagnosis and the mania that can occur. (I have schizoaffective disorder bipolar type). Just working on ways to like not overspend etc.

I’m still volunteering with the cat rescue. Have a shift tomorrow. That’s going well. It’s a lot of fun. There’s this girl who volunteers with me and helps out, she’s in high school. She can only volunteer there if there’s an adult there (such as me) because they don’t let people younger than 18 volunteer alone. So she comes in to help when I’m there. They generally don’t let people younger than 18 volunteer at all but they made an exception for her to as long as there’s an adult volunteer there with her. She’s really nice. She loves all the kitties. Has a bunch of kitties herself. It’s nice to have company, makes the time move quicker. I love volunteering but it does get a little boring when you’re doing it alone. The cats are awesome it’s just nice to have company too.

What else. Let’s see. Yeah doing good. Glad to not be in a relationship anymore that’s for sure. I much prefer being single and feel I’m doing better since I ended my relationship. It was stressing me out. Not to mention the fact that he cheated and didn’t tell me about it till like 3 months after I broke up with him.

I’ve gotten in a good routine with practicing violin.

I have 4 goals right now

1. Maintain a good sleep schedule
2. Keep up with practicing violin. It’s okay if I skip a day once in awhile (very occasionally) if needed but I can’t miss more than that because then it turns into a habit. One day is okay. 2 days starts the spiral into not picking it back up for weeks at a time. It’s okay though not to be so strict on myself where I say I have to practice every single day no exceptions. Obviously I can’t predict everything. Maybe I’ll get sick etc
3. Stay mindful of budget and don’t overspend
4. Brush/floss teeth twice a day