Hi R,

It's quite something to have acknowledged all of the anger, and not know where to put it.

My contact at the helpline asked me whether I'm worried about my anger harming Steve when we spoke yesterday.

When the feeling is present, I'm more worried about the impact that it has on me.

It's easier to repair a relationship when both parties are still alive.

Watching Eat, Pray, Love the other day, Liz was talking to her friend Richard from Texas about the end of her relationship with her husband.

'I miss him.'

'So, miss him! Send him some love and light every time you think about him, and then move on.'

My woundedness makes continued connection with Steve feel impossible...and it is therefore hard to figure out how to honour him on his birthday...whilst also honouring my experience.

Running out of time, anxiety building...

Lost