Took my normal dose of sertraline this morning. Still weepy. Now I'm listening to Imminence, my new favorite band, and we get to see them in March! Calling psychiatrist tomorrow. Telling her I'm fed up. Telling her I can handle this no longer and we need to make a med change BEFORE January 13th because I'm so horned up with no relief I can handle it no longer. This is TERRIBLE.

I got two hours of sleep last night. No motivation again today. Have to take a shower because didn't yesterday, but don't have the energy or motivation. I guess I'll just be a greasy schizo for a while. Whatever. I'm going to do my best to get in the shower though or my husband and daughter will start harassing me about it. That's so ANNOYING. Fck!!

GOD! I TOOK 400MG OF SEROQUEL AND HAVE NEVER FELT MORE AWAKE YET UNMOTIVATED AND DEPRESSED IN MY ENTIRE LIFE.

My husband doesn't think my GP is going to be able to help me either. I know my therapist just cares about me, but constantly being harassed about getting my hormones checked is making me want to tell her to leave me the fck alone. I'll make an appointment when I'm ready. God! LEAVE ME THE FCK ALONE!!!!