Not much new here. I'm dragging myself thru a new Netflix series called "No Good Deed." There are too many characters and i don't care about any of them. I'm on episode four of eight. Wish i had something better to do. At least it's a distraction. I was angry about the ancient past earlier, about how inadequate my mom was. When i told her i was getting divorced she didn't even say a word. She just made a sound like, "Aw."

But that's in the past and it would be better if i just let it go. She was a good mom in many other ways, and i was an adult by then anyways. I had a great childhood until i was ten. Lots of others didn't even get that much. Thinking about the past ruins my connection to the present. Not very mindful.

@BeyondtheRainbow:

So sorry for your loss. I lost someone i hadn't been in contact with in a while, my younger sister, and it was still sad. The world seems smaller without her. I'll keep you in my thoughts and prayers.

@Blue_Bird:

I admire how active you are but if it's not making you happy, give yourself a break. See how you feel doing less. You might surprise yourself!

@June08:

I've been on Risperdal for years and my cholesterol is fine.

@Nammu:

Glad you got some good food at the potluck. I think it's fine to be independent. I've been called anti-social but i just say, "Well at least i am not UNCLE social!"