Ugh, I had a morning. I didn't get to power walk b/c H had to be up early to go to work, and he needs constant prodding to wake. I was able to do a gentle pilates video for beginners, and the part for working the arms is getting easier for me. Used the SAD lamp and read and then came the hard part of the morning:

Our latest rescue cat, Sugarberry has a lot of problems. First, he is an older cat. Second he has FIV, which is like feline HIV. Cats with FIV don't waste away like with HIV but get frequent illnesses until they catch an illness they just can't fight any more. He threw up a lot Sunday night, and by early Monday all he did was lie in the garage without getting up and barely opening his eyes, wouldn't eat, wouldn't drink. H got an emergency appt. at the vet, and the poor guy is sick with a pancreas infection. They rehydrated him, worked on cooling him down by lying him on an ice pack. His temp was 105F, normal cat temp is around 100-102.5. They sent him home with 5 medications to administer, and that came the hard part.

In the morning, he had to take 1 pill, two liquid meds. The pill was so hard to give even though we have these pill pockets to fold around the pill to make it more palatable to the cat and H was helping me. He licked the outside pocket but kept spitting out the part containing the pill. I don't know how many time H had to open his mouth before we finally got the pill down. By that point, I was anxious, shaky with rushing adrenaline, I think, feeling almost manic. For the liquid meds, I had to hold Sugarberry and get him to open his mouth so H could squirt the liquid medications in because I was afraid I'd miss and get medicine on his fur and everywhere but in his mouth. I could tell by the end, not only was Sugarberry frustrated with me but H was too. My patience had just run out, even for a very sick, very loving wonderful cat. I have never been very patient, and I swear bipolar makes it SO much worse.

After that, I really couldn't calm down. Troed reading but no go. Did a little Happy Color on my iPad, sketched some though my sketches suck today.



I already took my extra 50 mg Seroquel about 45 min ago and still haven't calmed down. I have hydroxyzine and gabapentin I can take prn, probably need to pop those down after lunch.