Therapy left me feeling anxious today and I have no idea why. We have days that we just talk about anything and everything, practicing having a human interaction properly and this was one of those days. (We also back down before holidays). I went in planning to ask about his retirement which I thought was this upcoming year. Apparently I am trying to boot him out a few years early. I've done that before. I don't know why it's so hard for me to remember he's not planning to retire until he's 70. So that part was a little confusing until he figured out what I was asking. But aside from talking about my friend's death and the anniversary of my non bio dad's death this weekend it was not a stressful session. I'm booked for Mondays the next 2 weeks so I am not missing sessions. My depression is still doing well on the SAD light. I'm doing well. So I have no reason to be anxious. I even wrapped 3 Christmas presents. A LOT More to go. Somehow I seem to have gotten everyone a lot of small presents this year. Lots for people to unwrap but lots for me to wrap and with the tremors I have from meds I don't wrap nicely. But nobody really cares.


I'm going to have to take my cat to the vet. That's part of the anxiety. She has been vomiting a lot. It seems to be her treats, not her food, but I think she needs labs and maybe a special diet for a while. I don't really want her on a prescription diet because I think they use grain and I don't like grain in my cat's food. I think it is bad for them. The hard thing right now is that she's trained that if she uses her scratching pole in the kitchen rather than scratching my couch she gets treats. I do not want her to start scratching the couch b/c she's not getting treats. I'm going to try to give her kibble as a treat and see if she notices and if that helps the vomiting.

Tomorrow is my nieces' Irish dance performance. It's our 2nd time making a 4 hour trip to see performances (chorus Sunday) this week but so worth it. They won't be doing this forever.