Last night I felt suicidal. I thought about doing it. Then I thought who would take care of my cat, and how would my cat survive? I would also hurt my whole family if I did this, especially my mother. My mother years ago made me promise I would never kill myself. I've been like this before and I've attempted a few times.

Once again, I feel this way. I want it all to end. The pain, the hurt, the anguish. I am in immense emotional pain and it won't stop.

My boss treating me this way is the culprit, and finding myself in yet again, another position at work where I am being bullied and ostracized. And that cuts me deeply. It's an old wound, from having been bullied so frequently at work (I have a whole separate thread on this topic). This is the 7th job where I've been bullied.

I am at the end of my rope and just want out of this life and off this planet. I don't want to be here anymore.