I have EMDR again on January 2nd. I forget what we’re working on then. I think something related to impulsivity. Or maybe it was something to do with memories from when I overdosed on a large amount of dxm/cough syrup which was a horrific experience that traumatized me. Idk if I’m doing EMDR right. Like I try to hold the memories in my mind when we’re doing it and she’s moving her hand back and forth but idk if I’m doing it properly on my end of things.

I have a lot less anger and irritability today. I think it was pms making me so angry earlier in the week. I wanted to punch holes in walls. Everything was pissing me off.