I visited my friend in hospital today, she’s very unwell with multiple issues and because of age and frailty it’s not fixable. She’s getting palliative care.

I can’t feel anything, cognitively I’m aware it’s bad, and it’s sad, but I don’t feel it. She said another good friend was crying when she visited. I’ve got no tears. I just sat, we talked, I listened to what she needed to say. It feels like I should be crying and feeling sadness but I’m not.