@Blue_Bird I agree, I'd completely get rid of young-age trauma if I could. I know it affected me. There was sexual abuse by an uncle when I was 5. Growing up, my dad was constantly yelling and angry and strict, spanked for very minor offenses, I remember hiding in cornfields in the middle of summer just so he wouldn't find me and yell at me or spank me (and that is hot, itchy, very uncomfortable). And he spanked why beyond an appropriate age and with a belt as well. My mom just stood by and let it happen even though I knew that she never disciplined that way when it was just her home with us. I am still not close to my father for that reason, well, also I think he has some form of Asperger's or something, he is impossible to converse with, everyone who meets him says that right after the first time they try to communicate with him. We lived paycheck to paycheck growing up, not homeless so my situation was better than yours but pretty close to poverty; my dad had has own business repairing things (cars, tractors, TVs, VCRs, etc.) in farming country, and there were a lot of customers who couldn't pay or wouldn't pay for ages. If my grandparents had not given us food, I don't know what we would have done. All our clothes came from garage sales, which really doesn't make you very popular in school. The lack of living on the edge with money was very stressful; I can't even imagine how bad homelessness would have been. I had sexual trauma again in my 30s, but I swear it's the stuff that happened in my childhood that shaped my personality and my brain.