I feel sshhiittttyy about Christmas and i am tired of trying to talk myself out of it. I tried a virtual support group but they were all on about friends and family and Christmas so i quit right away. Six more days. Ack! I ordered groceries today and it went very smoothly, like magic. It's a shopper i've had before and rated highly so i hoped for the best and he didn't disappoint.

Thoughts of the past attacked me causing shame. I've fallen out of the spell of mindfulness. The past matters. It matters to me. FFuucckk mindfulness!

@Blue_Bird:

Thanks for the support but sorry you are in the same boat re lonely holidays. Keep an eye out for the virtual Christmas dinner thread i'll start in the social forum Christmas Eve. I found it made my Thanksgiving a bit more cheerful and hopefully you will enjoy it too.