Light therapy lamp is being returned tomorrow. Add that to the list of things I can't handle without going paranoid or anxious. We've got: benadryl, claritin, THC, behind the counter sudafed, and now light therapy lamps. I should make a fudging list and give it to my psychiatrist so it's on file so I never get fed benadryl or anything while inpatient.

I'm still paranoid and doubt I'll be able to fall asleep tonight. Luckily though I have an appointment with my therapist tomorrow morning so we can address the paranoia and what I should do because I don't feel right at the moment. I think if I would have continued light therapy I would have gone into a psychotic episode. I told my husband what was happening, and he said we were returning it and that I shouldn't sit in front of it anymore.

It feels like everything has gone slightly blurry.

I doubt that makes any sense.