((((((((((((((((((((((sujunew))))))))))))))))))))))))))))) I am sorry it is so hard right now. You are doing well with using other skills when you want to SI. Unfortunately it takes time to reinforce the new skills. When the pain gets intense it is more difficult to rely on the new ones. Maybe you can call you t? It sounds like you have been working well together on this. Sometimes it helps to get some of the hurt out too. She can help you there also. Please try and stay safe.

BB