Christmas drawing near is just putting me into one great deep depression. We have NO gifts bought for our daughter yet. H said he'd take care of it, but when? Time is running out. I don't like the holidays, don't like decorating, hate Christmas carols, baking, gift exchanges. I'm a Grinch. I really, really, really HATE this time of year of yay, yah, false happiness everywhere, people displaying their "perfect" Christmas pictures on FB and my life is like crap compared to everyone I went to high school with. Our Christmas tree isn't even decorated yet.

I wish we could skip to January though I hate that too what with all the diet, diet, diet blasting from TV, radio, magazines, internet. Not a good time for one with an ED in the past who does not need to diet but feels the compulsion (or competition to eat less, exercise more?) to with all these other people jumping on the bandwagon.

I need February to roll again already!

Feeling a bit down and morose this afternoon.