Thank you, @Raven1976 !
I've come to realize how important it is to have someone on your side during the process of recovery from narcissistic abuse. Actually, most of the people we knew chose to believe him (but now I know who I can trust).
This forum along with a couple of real friends are keeping me on the surface. And twitter (mostly I argue there to learn how to defend my boundaries).
I’ve stopped crying completely and I can actually see dreams again. I hadn’t remembered them for a long time, but now they’re starting to return!