Yeah, I'm thinking it's like 90% BPD right now. I have "psychosis" I guess in that there's paranoia, hallucinations, and this persistent thought that I'm immortal, but I feel closer to my "baseline" dysfunctional that's just amplified by situational stuff every now and then. I feel like if I justified the claim of being "in a mixed episode" I wouldn't have the moments during the day where I'm "okay."

I'm majorly splitting on that dude though right now. I said he has a sense of humor like my father did, but "milder" but now I'm thinking it's not "milder" since he kinda said since I wasn't swallowed like I should've been, I should be pushed down a huge staircase (I mean, he didn't overtly say it about me, but it was insinuated). He also cancelled our plans this weekend which is good because he said he was afraid I'd stab him a few weeks ago, and today would've been a day I'd be tempted (I jest.)