(it'd be a fake promise but they don't have to know that). Tomorrow I see med nurse in the morning and CM later on. I dun did dumb.
But huge trigger warning and even in a box a mod might take some details out, if they do let's just say it's excessive
And yes, not only did I call my treatment team crisis line twice beforehand, I reached out to 988, and they both triggered me further (first time my team said "well it's normal to be anxious around change" and the second time it was someone else who just talked about my dad hating me)(988 lady told me to stop taking my meds), so...don't think I'll do that again.
It wasn't a suicide attempt.
They say IP is if you're a danger to "yourself or others" and I'm not a danger to others at this second, so I feel like I'm good, but I feel like no one else will understand that.