My Support Forums - View Single Post - Chances of going IP after the fact if you promise not to do it again

MuddyBoots · Dec 22, 2024, 10:37 PM

(it'd be a fake promise but they don't have to know that). Tomorrow I see med nurse in the morning and CM later on. I dun did dumb.

But huge trigger warning and even in a box a mod might take some details out, if they do let's just say it's excessive

Possible trigger:

Probably at least 40 lacerations to the arm/wrist and a couple on my foot/ankle, 6 or so that they'd probably stitch up/staple if I went to a doc right now which I will not do because I know they'll heal on their own just not so pretty looking. Also took 8mg of Xanax (and feeling like it was a hydroxyzine, but whatever).

And yes, not only did I call my treatment team crisis line twice beforehand, I reached out to 988, and they both triggered me further (first time my team said "well it's normal to be anxious around change" and the second time it was someone else who just talked about my dad hating me)(988 lady told me to stop taking my meds), so...don't think I'll do that again.

It wasn't a suicide attempt.

Possible trigger:

(I'll never "attempt suicide" because I can't die. I'm like one of those McDonald's cheeseburgers that's like 26 years old. I can prove it. I'll swallow every pill prescribed or OTC and chop off my limbs and drink antifreeze and post tomorrow afternoon how my stomach hurts)

They say IP is if you're a danger to "yourself or others" and I'm not a danger to others at this second, so I feel like I'm good, but I feel like no one else will understand that.