@MuddyBoots:

I'm so very sorry to hear that you are in such pain. I wish i knew the words to make it better. We're all here for you. You have such good energy and are so spirited, you add so much to this forum. We want you around. *I* want you around. Please try and persevere, you've shown you're resourceful about this in the past, it's a useful skill. All the breaks i got in life were just because i hung in there.