I read some of your posts and want to say hello and that I feel for you.
I quit smoking cigarettes 10 years ago for several months and gained terrible overweight. So I returned to smoking for several years. And forced myself go the gym at least 1 time per week. Also, I ate a little but every 2-3 hours to help my body to reduce the amount of food. And I started to drink coffee. It helped me, and after 3 years my weight became normal.
But when I left smoking cigarettes finally, that took a lot of time, I discovered that now I have a lot of energy to do things. I also didn't have the strength to look after myself while I was smoking cigarettes, but now I learned.
To be honest, I changed cigarettes to a vape, and quit vaping after.
But with the beginning of the war, I started vaping again. I am very happy, that I did not return to cigarettes. I feel a lot better when do not inhale smog from burning leaves, paper and god knows what else. I make vape liquid by myself to be sure there is nothing harmful in it (at least what was studied for now) and a very little amount of nicotine compared to every cigarette. I hope there will be a day when I would have not this enormous amount of stress and quit nicotine fully.
And some good men wanted to be with me even when I smoked, they were waiting when I quit this but were on my side.
I think that I will never be with a person who doesn't understand that people can change. There are a lot of men who know what dependencies are, some of them quit also and have a nice life.