defeated
Some years ago-actually long time ago-i had a completely different perspective. Way too positive
Now that i have become a mid-thirties useless person, after almost 8 years shut in a house, losing everything, my mind has changed... and i don't want to survive to my mother. Not because of loneliness -which is not a big issue- but because of guilt. I can't go on after the horror that happened to her life. She is turning 70 next year, her life has been taken away from her because of my mistakes and i simply waiting for her to fly away in the hope to reach her again
***** happened and i've been unable to fix it. For eight years